Activity

We presented an activity today and I must admit I wasn't very happy with the result. I know that we are capable of doing much more and better than we did today. I know my buddy Nicolas did well, he had the voice and the ability to control a class. As for myself, I have many weaknesses that I must begin working on, such as:

1. Nerves: My nerves have been a problem in my life ever since I was a child, for some reason I just seem to crumble under pressure, which I believe is my biggest obstacle in becoming a good teacher.

2. Tone: I seem to have a weak voice, I haven't had the chance to hear it yet, but I know I have a low voice which seems to indicate a lack of confidence. Without it, the students could eat us alive if they choose to.

3. Modulation: Another nerve related weakness, although it seems to pop out in calm situations as well. I must learn to speak properly, this is a problem for me in both English and Spanish, so I must seek some help right away if I want to be understood.

4. Concentration: Under pressure I seem to lose my focus and seem to drift off and give an answer randomly without thinking or going off topic.

5. Confidence: I know I have the ability to be a great teacher, we all have that ability, the problem is that the moment I stand in front of a classroom, my confidence disappears.

6. Awareness: As a teacher I have to be aware of the entire classroom, I seem to focus only on the students that want to learn and seem to ignore the others who don't care. This also applies to conduct as well.

7. Control: As teachers we have to be in control of the classroom, we can't let the students take over, if we allow them to do that then we aren't doing our jobs. I need to have a bit of a "mean streak" to control the students. I feel as though I'm too nice.

In conclusion, I was very disappointed with my performance, I was even very angry with myself because I know I'm capable of doing much better, there are no excuses for what happened, but I know I must improve. I have some experience as a teacher so I must use that to show everyone that I'm capable of doing this.

I have the language, I just need the attitude.

I don't want to be one of the bunch, I want to be the best, period.